My brain told me I have enough books

So, a funny thing happened to me recently. Any of you who normally poke at my posts now and then saw that last month I went to a book clearance sale and got a pile of books. Before that, I did two or three library sales and got tons more… well, tomorrow I’ll be doing yet another book haul. This one, a normal one. No clearance or library sales here, so it’ll be about 6ish books or so. All of these books in the last few hauls were bought within what, four months? Five?

The funny thing happened this past Thursday: A friend and I went to a library sale together. It was $5 for a bag full of however many books you could stuff in there.

I didn’t buy a single book. I feel that I’ve finally finally hit that mental wall of ‘maybe I actually have enough’.

It was a really, really weird feeling. I found books that I’ve been looking for in that sale, but I had zero motivation to buy them. I think the trigger was my husband and I were discussing moving the other day (we’re doing it next month) and I mentioned that I would likely have to get a 6th book case in the process. The mental image of six book cases full of books was and is a lovely one, but I knew a huge portion of those would be unread for a long time, especially if I kept buying at my normal pace.

I guess my subconscious decided that ‘this is enough for now, you have plenty to read for years’ and therefore I felt no pleasure at the idea of buying a bag full of books at this library sale.

So guess who is putting myself on a ban. Time’s up, it me!

So from now until I’m going to say… Christmas, I will be buying zero books for myself, with one exception: The third illustrated Harry Potter book comes out in October. I’ve planned on getting that for months and will still get that. Other than that, 0 books. None.

Tomorrow’s post will be my last book haul until Christmas time. The Harry Potter book I get won’t get its own dedicated haul, but will likely just be mentioned in a wrap up or something. Tomorrow’s haul will have 6ish books in it and then next Saturday’s post (Wed being a T5W post…) will be a TBR post. I want to quantify exactly how many unread books I have. Most people (at least in the book community online) know or have an idea of this number. I honestly have no clue. It’s got to be over 200 at this point.

I want to see what my TBR is like now and then what it’s like at the end of the year. I want to see if and by how much this ban decreases it. I think from there one of my 2018 reading goals will be to decrease it further, the exact number to be decided.

I see a lot of book ban posts being made with a feeling of shame or determination or… whatever positive/negative energy that the person is feeling. I feel… neither of those. It’s weird. I don’t feel shame for having so many, I don’t feel super motivated to keep myself from buying books. I just… don’t feel any motivation to buy books at this point.

Apathy is the drive behind this one folks, woo.

So wish me luck. I both hope this lack-luster feeling lasts and that hope that it doesn’t. I don’t like the feeling. I’d much rather feel motivated to maintain self-control, haha.

Happy reading!